I am starting to let go of my frustrations by biting my lower lip.
Hope it doesn't bleed. Went Bedok Reservoir just now.
Will be posting pictures.


My bro take one. Thats why blurry.


He damn cute right?


Flying fox-ing at Bedok Reservoir


CAMWHORING

Under my umbrella, ella, ella.

hug, HUG, HUG



Tall candy canes, nah, I think they're for birds.



Syu. :D




CAMWHORING!!

is that shadow cute or what? Teehee.


WAAAAAA

Let's kiss the pavement.



We are all thirsty & tired.




BIG FOOT DOES EXIST.
You know what I think?
I think the Big Foot legend is derived from the Andean mountaineers Miss Gloria Tan talked about.
Missing Mrs Koh.

Last Friday....





You may kiss the...uh...broom?

Not last Friday.

George says he wanna photoshop this picture.
I wanna see the outcome.

Tell me, who have not started vandalizing their table?

WAAAAA,
JASLEN'S COUSIN WATCH PRISON BREAK.

Today, went to take edusave,
yearly affair, nothing special.
But it was held in a basketball court.
I was so damn bored.
And my head hurts.
So it was no wonder I wanted to go home early.
It still hurts.
And I don't like to take pills.
I mean, I can't swallow them, I dunno why.
Changed email add today.
You wanna add me?
tradgedyinmemoir@hotmail.com

Anyone can find for me the english translation for the Secret OST?
Ty.
Today isn't my best hair day.
And I saw that gorgeous guy from the bus stop.
He took edusave too.
His name is Darrel sth.

Stupid me, I've fallen in love with slow songs.
Especially Empty.
And when I listen to it in the morning, I tend to not be hyper in the day.
Therefore, the label 'emo' by jeremy or syahid.
So I listen to MCR to cheer myself up.
The Click Five's songs are okay.
Don't really like the band.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6Zt315k3Z9I
Kyle,he sang it with emotions.
Love it.

For my birthday, I WANT A HOODIE.
hinthint

JEREMY, Lost S3 come out already.

I finished watching half of Lost.
Walao, why must Band have practice same time as us.
I want to borrow their drum set.
Theirs very complete.
I heard they putting some of their stuff in
CD shelter.
Wanted to try I Don't Love You Drum cover.
Its like damn easy.
But who cares, I will never get enough money for the course.
I'll try again next year

School is starting to suck big time.
Whats with me getting labeled emo every other day.
DID ANYONE READ THE ARTICLE I PRINTED?
So, George became more hardworking.
And Jeremy is still singing as badly.


CO sucks more than ever.
Wait, more like Percussion sucks more than ever.

Jessie, if you ever read this,
these are the unspoken things I would like to say to you.
Stop giving us that look when we make mistakes. You're no better than we are either.
Just because you are a senior doesn't mean we can't talk back at you.
You aren't the best percussionist around you know,
Don't think you're the best just because you are a senior.
Stop criticizing us, especially Stephanie.
YOU HAVE YOUR OWN FLAWS.
Stop thinking we are dumb.
You're a senior but do you treat us like your juniors?
If not for the hope I have, I would have quit.
I wish you would improve that fucking attitude of yours.

I didn't notice this when I first started last year.
It suddenly came to me one.
So its no wonder I was pissed and in a bad mood when I came for practice today.
Took 28.
Saw Tauhidah and Aizat.
Not talking at all, I walked into the CD shelter.
Sat and started staring somewhere.
Eric asked me what was wrong.
And I nodded my head towards Jessie.
Then he ask me sit somewhere else with him,
while people were practising for CNY.
I told him what I wanted to tell him.
And I abruptly went out of the shelter, with the excuse of going to toilet.
There, I ended up crying, like wth right?
Didn't tell Eric lah.
He doesn't read my blog.
I felt so stupid for crying.
Its just that I had so much anger against Jessie,
that I just broke down.
Then I returned, wait for people to go out.
Yiliang said hello to me.
Managed to say hi back.
Cheered me up a little bit.
But still mad.
Yiliang, you were so right to quit percussion.
The senior[s] totally suck.
Now, I can't quite agree with everything that Jessie decides.
So, I really need to put all those negative feelings aside
in order to stop percussion from falling apart.

Yesterday, during the March holidays

If it will feed nothing else, it will feed my revenge.

THE MERCHANT OF VENICE IS DAMN NICE.

Shylock's words are very true.
I totally love this movie.
Ok, so I admit Joseph is hot in the movie.

Ok, free periods were spent on reading, discussing topic in books with george and syahid
AND
reading.
My ear got problem today.
Ask Syahid and George what I said.
You probably should know since I screamed.
Loud.
TODAY, we were like all reading.
Me, Crank.
Tauhidah, Bloodline Book 2[first time i see her reading]
Shahidah,HARRY POTTER AND DEATHLY HALLOWS
Farhana, some book by Nora Roberts
Amirah, Close sthsthsth
Natasya, she didnt bring Bloodline Book 1
George was like,"You read that kind of books from where?"
Syahid,"Novels?"
"Teenagers or Adults?"
"Teenagers."
"Walao, you read that kind of book."
I HAVE TO THANK AMIRAH FOR CRANK
Crank has rape,unwanted pregnancies,drugs, the likes.
Today someone look like Aliff Aziz.
Then I say to Syahid,"I hate Aliff."
"Farhana, you know why I hate Aliff right?"
[nods]

I'M BROKE.

CURRENT HOT ACTOR:
ZACHARY QUINTO



He plays Sylar.
Gabriel.
whatever.
oh god, he is so damn nerdy but he has flat hair,
so he's my type.
HE TOTALLY REMINDS ME OF SUPERMAN.
AAAAAAAAAA
Joseph Fiennes is nothing.


SHAI!!
You wanna see the Stormbreaker person?

CUTE KAN??

Pleaded with my Dad to ask about drum lessons at YAMAHA music school.
The course starts on Valentines Day,
and how am I suppose to find over hundred bucks in exactly one month?
Wish Mum and Dad would support my dreams.
Its so frustrating if not even your family is there for you.
Whats wrong with playing the drums?
Its a skill I wanna take up.
I'm already teased for joining Chinese Ochestra by my relatives.
Why can't I be the person I wanna be?
MUSIC IS MY LIFE.
I am not ashamed to be in CO.
But why can't I have outside classes?
I know you don't want me taking up those courses you consider crap.
But let me live my life.
And you live yours.
I need some freedom.
Is there anything wrong with me, a malay in CO?
I WILL NOT LET ANYTHING STAND IN MY WAY.

But first, I need some money.

Oh and there's this new guy in MT,
his accent is totally sexy.
But he's not.
He's indonesian & his name's Anderson.
Pretty name.

Today I got talk to Jing Yi about the number seven again.
"I LIKE SEVEN!"
"I LIKE SEVEN TOO!"
"JING YI, HIGH FIVE!"
"NOT HIGH FIVE, SEVEN FIVE!"
Its suppose to be High Seven though.
Oh people don't get it wrong.
Jing Yi likes seven because of Cristiano Ronaldo.[edited]
He's not gay lah.
Me?
You guys know why I like No, seven.
No need explain.

GEORGE IS VERY IRRITATING

The other day got Temasek Poly Open house.
Then got a lot of Compassvale Sec 4 people.
And it occur to me that that bastard could be the guy who was staring at me when i crossed the road.

Ohmygod,
just realized that I have no evps friends to talk to already.
I HAVE NOT TALK TO SYATHIRAH IN A FEW MONTHS.
SHE IS LIKE, MY SISTER.

ok, this is like my fault.
I have been so caught up in secondary school,
that I ignore the people that were once my life.
IF YOU EVER READ THIS,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABES,
PLEASE FORGIVE ME THAT I IGNORE YOU PEOPLE.
When was the last time I talk to an evps bestie?
uh, no idea.
Have I change ex-east viewans?
Please tell me.
I think I have.
I hate myself for changing.

Bedok Resevoir, damn nice place to go.

George's crazy chair.



PE



Mother Tongue

EDWARD HAS HIS OWN BUS


LOVE the title.



Trip to library

WOO, SCIENCE.


Some random mix couple, so sweet.





Shadows.

this photo so cool.



This is the result of feeling hyper.
Shahidah says if I was a cartoon, my face would be like this:
=D

See a chicken anyone?

WOO, I WAS BITTEN BY A VAMPIRE, lol.

Our haven.

Living in agony,
With eyes closed,
syuhada.

yeayeayea.
so, picture time.
feeling hyper last friday.
Trip to library last wednesday.
so, ya, hold on ya.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BLOGGER GOT SOMETHING WRONG
CANNOT UPLOAD PHOTOS
WTH?


so, today first teensaLIVE lesson,
oklah.
know a number of people.
yesterday was jaslen's(:D) birthday.
STEPHANIE!
SHE SAY YOU WRAP WITH A LOT OF NEWSPAPER!
I THOUGHT YOU WERE JOKING!

Oh ya, i forgot to thank jeremy.
Thanks for the shinedown cd n lost.

Friday night I watched Lost for 3 hours,
& I didn't feel really bored.
MIRACULOUS YEA?
Since I used to say PB better,
it still is actually.
So maybe I continue watching today.
I forgot when I got fight with Jing Yi over who gets tray 7 for the science experiment.
"If got seven,I would have taken it."
"HAHA, YOU GOT SIXTEEN"
ok, i'm crapping.

Yesterdays practice,
The conductor ask me hit the cymbals harder.
I hithithit.
Then finally this erhu guy walked to my place and hit louder than me?
Anybody know his name?

JULIAN CAME BACK
"You working ar?"Eric asked.
"No"
I eyed him from the corner of my eye,
and gave him THAT look.
"I remember telling your group leader I was."
AND HE SMIRKED.
That taught me not to trust him ever again.
When he came,
"You what, Posh Beckham ar?"
AND I WAS @*$//~#&*
First of all, ITS POSH SPICE, DUMBO.
SECOND, I LOOK NOTHING LIKE HER.

I WAS GONE FOR SO FEW DAYS
MY TAGBOARD FLOODED.

to celeste,
uh, no comment.

to yanyi & elizabeth,
okok, i give.

TO YILIANG,
DON'T ANYHOW SAY YOU HATE PERC LEH,
YOU TALKING TO SOMEONE IN PERC LEH!

Who's Al Pacino?



Oh, the one who play The Godfather, ceh.



JOSEPHJOSEPHJOSEPHJOSEPHJOSEPH

He's just old.

But hotter than Al Pacino.

AND ITS JOSEPH FIENNES, JEREMY.

I'm very pissed suddenly.
So, listen to what I have to say.

I hate people who act cool just because they are in different schools.
[YOU WOULDN'T SAY HI TO ME]
I detest biased people.
[like people i do not want to mention]
I hate it when Syahid changes face.
[it means, he can talk to you one second,
another he will ignore you]
I hate it when -ehhem- is always with that cello girl.
[are you the YQ that I saw on the table]
I hate it when I don't see -ehhem-.
I hate it when people throws away your idea,
without looking at it.
I hate gossip reporters
[Emo cult warning? wth? what shit is that?]
I hate it when racists strike.
I hate it when my grandma rants.
I hate it when people simply cannot be bothered.
I hate Derrick.
I hate assumer-s of SPARKS being clever.
I hate most 2r6 people.
I hate Jessie's character.
I hate it when Celeste smiles.
I hate it when he doesn't care.
I hate side-taking.

Many more things are detested but,
I'm too scarred.

lyrics mean a lot to me.

Joseph Fiennes,
one of the actors of The Merchant of Venice.
hothothothothothothot
He also got voice the friend of Sinbad, in the cartoon movie. :D
BUT 37 YEARS OLD

I've waited for you,
I've waited so long.

Adapted from Crank

Hello.
Hey, gorgeous. I miss you.
Melted butter.
Oh, Adam. Me too.
I can't stay on long.
Phone bills you know.
Hot butter burned.
Ok.
Just want you to know i love you.
Burned good.
Me too. Always.
Lince is coming home tomorrow.
She'll be okay.
Burned bad.
I'm glad.
Bree? I've been thinking.
We're a long way apart.
Sizzled.
I know.
So I think we should give each other permission to see other people.
Spattered.
You want permission?
You have mine.
Just think of me from time to time.
Welted.
I don't need your permission, Buddy.
And you obviously don't need mine.
Well, ok then.
Better go.
Keep in touch.
I really do love you.
SCARRED

I WAS DAMN TIRED
AND DIDNT GO CO CONCERT
WTH

So, jessie better improve her character.
Maisarah say two malays join CO.
Ok lah.
I WAS REALLY TIRED BECAUSE OF CCA DAY
Celeste was doing EVERYTHING she can to promote CO
"We go overseas trip lah"
blahblah,
some of them were crap that wasn't completely true.
And I was very popular then.
Celeste was pointing to me most of the time
to emphasize that I'M MALAY in CO.
Nvm.
Don't want to explain.
MAISARAH DON'T SKIP PRACTICE
I MISS TALKING TO YOU =D
and add a heart on my name at your links.
Please?
I GAVE YOU TWO SMILES LEH

jeremy, we have to stop this.
or I'm going to start hating you again.
Which I'm currently not

Today visual arts was crap.

Just because you are in SPARKS does not make you special.
From your body language,
I can tell that some of you have that kind of attitude.

By that, she meant to emphasize
on the fact that
MOST of us are proud.
WHAT FUCKING JUDGEMENT IS THAT?

Tomorrow performing for Sec 1.
2-5.30pm
Then must go CO concert
Just now, same thing happened
just like yesterday.
I don't know what is happening to Percussion nowadays.
Like falling apart somehow.
Its partly juniors' fault
but also seniors' fault.
Ok, Jessie gave me something to play in da zu
then sectional, eric, jaslen, jessie and victor suppose to play.
But Eric play too fast,
so as Jessie says.
Everyone has their flaws right?
Except Victor I think, he damn pro lah he
Take for example,
Jessie, she has short arms,
she can't really play the 6 drums.
Stephanie 2r7,
doesn't learn very fast, unlike alfred,
but she can count beat for me. :D
very constant one.
Okay continue,
whatever it is,
Jessie likes to put our juniors down.
No wonder dishearten the juniors.
Yesterday, she told me,
"This song very difficult for you,"
Actually very easy.
She makes me feel stupid.
Stephanie is always left out in practice.
I hate that.
Just now, Eric kena.
I dunno how to explain.
Thats when I explain to Jessie.
Jessie, you are so like Julian,
do you know that?
You put people down.
We feel very disheartened, do you know that?
You should let Eric play.
He came to practice and at last never play anything.
Jarratt never come because it was his choice to not play anything.
Do you know that Stephanie feels left out every practice?
But I got ask her whether she want to play what?
She say don't want.
That's because she was already disheartened.
Do you know that Julian used to pick on her? [thisoneyesterdayisay]
The [songname] got alot of instruments one.
YA, LEE CHUANG/LI QUANG ALREADY SAY.
Can let them play right?

Okay, so Percussion really started to crumble
after two of our most pro members graduate.
Pathetic.
We need to raise our standards leh?

So what do I do with Eric?
Kiss him?
So what do I do with Eric?
Tomorrow I try teach.
[someone screamed]
I thought that was you.
Where I got so vulgar one?
I only say Kiss Him.
Lol.

Okay, to -ehhem-
During practice Eric told me he at canteen
So I went, buy drink.
Spotted him with a bunch of nerd Sec 1 girls.
I stormed off.
Threw my Barley drink.
And sobbed.
I hate 2008 already.
As usual if got sth happen involving -ehhem-,
I would cry myself to sleep.
That probably sounds emo,
but its becoming a habit.
i'm not emo.
But what do you expect?
He's graduating.
I hate 2008 already.


Anyone miss Mr Lee?
I do.

Today I'm gonna blog about a lot of things.
So, first, happy new year guys.
[Jeremy, I was kind enough to let you off
and wish you a happy new year,
but you just don't appreciate things that I do]

2007 past, 2008 came.
Elizabeth say she nerd at starting of the year,
THEN I WHAT?
Walao, my skirt was long,
my fringe pulled back,
My only friend was Jaslen.
Ok so joined CO start,
liked it
blahblahblah
fought with jeremy
Fell in love with -ehhem-
Got into a relationship with -urgh- instead of -ehhem-.
studystudystudy
examexamexam
broke up with -urgh-
he-who-must-not-be-named
was there when i needed someone
[please note that i use diff names for diff ppl]
holiday,
still got CO.
heroesheroesheroes
Got my fucking hair cut.
&....
2008

School,
first day.
sat beside Nat,
she very hyper, very fun
Syahid, chairman.
SYAHID VERY STUCK UP,
DUN WANT TO TALK TO ME AND NAT.
Surrounded by George,JeremyLoh and Weisheng.
Oh ya weisheng, I watching Kung Fu Dunk with Aida.
All very stuck up,
none of them communicate with us.
So we talk among ourselves,
pathetic right?
Sat at far corner of classroom.
beside a mushroom.
MRS LOCK FORM TEACHER!
WOOO
Math, oklah.
Ms Alice Chua.
LITERATURE
WHY NOONE BLOG ABOUT LITERATURE??
Mr Lim very fun one,
he got say "something crappy"
Then I dunno why I soo hyper that part of the day one,
I said loudly,"WOO, YOU SAID CRAP!!"
Then everyone's head turn to look at me,
and started laughing.
I was thinking out loud, wth.
Then Mr Lim was like, "Whats your name, ar? I like you."
Everyone was going "WOAH"
Ok thats the end of literature incident.
3pm got CO,
I AM SO PISSED WITH JESSIE
SHE DAMN BIASED LAH SHE
Waited outside CD shelter,
until Koknam arrived with the key.
Oh and, I fucking hate my bag,
I DON'T EVEN LIKE PINK!
Got in waitwaitwait,
played the snare drum and bass drum and hi-hat,
I learn from www.freedrumlessons.com
taught Eric and Alfred
Then called Jessie,
She was like, "Oh, I forgot to tell you change 4 pm"
That didn't trigger my anger.
So practice songs for CCA day,
more like,
only Jessie, Stephanie Sec 3 and Alfred play liao.
Just because two of then got their grade test already
and another is in charge of the pai gu, i think.
The rest never do anything.
Then got one song, need a lot of instrument,
again Jessie,Steph and Alfred play.
GOT LIKE NINE INSTRUMENTS LEH
I raised my voice at Jessie,my very own senior.
"LI QUANG SAY GOT NINE INSTRUMENT RIGHT?
WHY DON'T YOU LET OTHERS PLAY?!!!!!"
She simply replied,"The other instrument all so weak."
WHAT KIND OF EXCUSE IS THAT?
All the time,
Eric was arranging
the crash cymbal,
the hi-hat,
low tom,
mid tom,
bass & snare drum.

Then he play during practise.
No wonder Celeste shouted "SHUT UP LAH ERIC"
Oh and someone thought out loud and said,
"Actually you quite pretty,"
and I heard it.
Finish, Jessie say tomorrow come on time,
then I SHOUTED "YOU COME ON TIME LAH"
Then she went to talk to some people,
then she repeat, "Practice tomorrow 3.30 come on time"
Thats when I snapped,
"YOU TELL US COME ON TIME,
YOU ALSO COME ON TIME LAH.
TOLD ME 3.00,
THEN SAY,'I FORGOT TELL YOU CHANGE 4.00'
FORGET?
WHAT KIND OF EXCUSE IS THAT?!!"
Then someone, i think the name Chuiying, say
SEE SHE ANGRY ALREADY
OF COURSE I'M ANGRY
Then I walked out of CD shelter.
So pissed,
AND I REACHED HOME,
i started throwing tantrums.
and here I am,