I am starting to let go of my frustrations by biting my lower lip.
Hope it doesn't bleed. Went Bedok Reservoir just now.
Will be posting pictures.


My bro take one. Thats why blurry.


He damn cute right?


Flying fox-ing at Bedok Reservoir


CAMWHORING

Under my umbrella, ella, ella.

hug, HUG, HUG



Tall candy canes, nah, I think they're for birds.



Syu. :D




CAMWHORING!!

is that shadow cute or what? Teehee.


WAAAAAA

Let's kiss the pavement.



We are all thirsty & tired.




BIG FOOT DOES EXIST.
You know what I think?
I think the Big Foot legend is derived from the Andean mountaineers Miss Gloria Tan talked about.
Missing Mrs Koh.

Last Friday....





You may kiss the...uh...broom?

Not last Friday.

George says he wanna photoshop this picture.
I wanna see the outcome.

Tell me, who have not started vandalizing their table?

WAAAAA,
JASLEN'S COUSIN WATCH PRISON BREAK.

Today, went to take edusave,
yearly affair, nothing special.
But it was held in a basketball court.
I was so damn bored.
And my head hurts.
So it was no wonder I wanted to go home early.
It still hurts.
And I don't like to take pills.
I mean, I can't swallow them, I dunno why.
Changed email add today.
You wanna add me?
tradgedyinmemoir@hotmail.com

Anyone can find for me the english translation for the Secret OST?
Ty.
Today isn't my best hair day.
And I saw that gorgeous guy from the bus stop.
He took edusave too.
His name is Darrel sth.

Stupid me, I've fallen in love with slow songs.
Especially Empty.
And when I listen to it in the morning, I tend to not be hyper in the day.
Therefore, the label 'emo' by jeremy or syahid.
So I listen to MCR to cheer myself up.
The Click Five's songs are okay.
Don't really like the band.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=6Zt315k3Z9I
Kyle,he sang it with emotions.
Love it.

For my birthday, I WANT A HOODIE.
hinthint

JEREMY, Lost S3 come out already.

I finished watching half of Lost.
Walao, why must Band have practice same time as us.
I want to borrow their drum set.
Theirs very complete.
I heard they putting some of their stuff in
CD shelter.
Wanted to try I Don't Love You Drum cover.
Its like damn easy.
But who cares, I will never get enough money for the course.
I'll try again next year

School is starting to suck big time.
Whats with me getting labeled emo every other day.
DID ANYONE READ THE ARTICLE I PRINTED?
So, George became more hardworking.
And Jeremy is still singing as badly.


CO sucks more than ever.
Wait, more like Percussion sucks more than ever.

Jessie, if you ever read this,
these are the unspoken things I would like to say to you.
Stop giving us that look when we make mistakes. You're no better than we are either.
Just because you are a senior doesn't mean we can't talk back at you.
You aren't the best percussionist around you know,
Don't think you're the best just because you are a senior.
Stop criticizing us, especially Stephanie.
YOU HAVE YOUR OWN FLAWS.
Stop thinking we are dumb.
You're a senior but do you treat us like your juniors?
If not for the hope I have, I would have quit.
I wish you would improve that fucking attitude of yours.

I didn't notice this when I first started last year.
It suddenly came to me one.
So its no wonder I was pissed and in a bad mood when I came for practice today.
Took 28.
Saw Tauhidah and Aizat.
Not talking at all, I walked into the CD shelter.
Sat and started staring somewhere.
Eric asked me what was wrong.
And I nodded my head towards Jessie.
Then he ask me sit somewhere else with him,
while people were practising for CNY.
I told him what I wanted to tell him.
And I abruptly went out of the shelter, with the excuse of going to toilet.
There, I ended up crying, like wth right?
Didn't tell Eric lah.
He doesn't read my blog.
I felt so stupid for crying.
Its just that I had so much anger against Jessie,
that I just broke down.
Then I returned, wait for people to go out.
Yiliang said hello to me.
Managed to say hi back.
Cheered me up a little bit.
But still mad.
Yiliang, you were so right to quit percussion.
The senior[s] totally suck.
Now, I can't quite agree with everything that Jessie decides.
So, I really need to put all those negative feelings aside
in order to stop percussion from falling apart.

Yesterday, during the March holidays

If it will feed nothing else, it will feed my revenge.

THE MERCHANT OF VENICE IS DAMN NICE.

Shylock's words are very true.
I totally love this movie.
Ok, so I admit Joseph is hot in the movie.

Ok, free periods were spent on reading, discussing topic in books with george and syahid
AND
reading.
My ear got problem today.
Ask Syahid and George what I said.
You probably should know since I screamed.
Loud.
TODAY, we were like all reading.
Me, Crank.
Tauhidah, Bloodline Book 2[first time i see her reading]
Shahidah,HARRY POTTER AND DEATHLY HALLOWS
Farhana, some book by Nora Roberts
Amirah, Close sthsthsth
Natasya, she didnt bring Bloodline Book 1
George was like,"You read that kind of books from where?"
Syahid,"Novels?"
"Teenagers or Adults?"
"Teenagers."
"Walao, you read that kind of book."
I HAVE TO THANK AMIRAH FOR CRANK
Crank has rape,unwanted pregnancies,drugs, the likes.
Today someone look like Aliff Aziz.
Then I say to Syahid,"I hate Aliff."
"Farhana, you know why I hate Aliff right?"
[nods]

I'M BROKE.

CURRENT HOT ACTOR:
ZACHARY QUINTO



He plays Sylar.
Gabriel.
whatever.
oh god, he is so damn nerdy but he has flat hair,
so he's my type.
HE TOTALLY REMINDS ME OF SUPERMAN.
AAAAAAAAAA
Joseph Fiennes is nothing.


SHAI!!
You wanna see the Stormbreaker person?

CUTE KAN??

Pleaded with my Dad to ask about drum lessons at YAMAHA music school.
The course starts on Valentines Day,
and how am I suppose to find over hundred bucks in exactly one month?
Wish Mum and Dad would support my dreams.
Its so frustrating if not even your family is there for you.
Whats wrong with playing the drums?
Its a skill I wanna take up.
I'm already teased for joining Chinese Ochestra by my relatives.
Why can't I be the person I wanna be?
MUSIC IS MY LIFE.
I am not ashamed to be in CO.
But why can't I have outside classes?
I know you don't want me taking up those courses you consider crap.
But let me live my life.
And you live yours.
I need some freedom.
Is there anything wrong with me, a malay in CO?
I WILL NOT LET ANYTHING STAND IN MY WAY.

But first, I need some money.

Oh and there's this new guy in MT,
his accent is totally sexy.
But he's not.
He's indonesian & his name's Anderson.
Pretty name.

Today I got talk to Jing Yi about the number seven again.
"I LIKE SEVEN!"
"I LIKE SEVEN TOO!"
"JING YI, HIGH FIVE!"
"NOT HIGH FIVE, SEVEN FIVE!"
Its suppose to be High Seven though.
Oh people don't get it wrong.
Jing Yi likes seven because of Cristiano Ronaldo.[edited]
He's not gay lah.
Me?
You guys know why I like No, seven.
No need explain.

GEORGE IS VERY IRRITATING

The other day got Temasek Poly Open house.
Then got a lot of Compassvale Sec 4 people.
And it occur to me that that bastard could be the guy who was staring at me when i crossed the road.

Ohmygod,
just realized that I have no evps friends to talk to already.
I HAVE NOT TALK TO SYATHIRAH IN A FEW MONTHS.
SHE IS LIKE, MY SISTER.

ok, this is like my fault.
I have been so caught up in secondary school,
that I ignore the people that were once my life.
IF YOU EVER READ THIS,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABES,
PLEASE FORGIVE ME THAT I IGNORE YOU PEOPLE.
When was the last time I talk to an evps bestie?
uh, no idea.
Have I change ex-east viewans?
Please tell me.
I think I have.
I hate myself for changing.

Bedok Resevoir, damn nice place to go.

George's crazy chair.



PE



Mother Tongue

EDWARD HAS HIS OWN BUS


LOVE the title.



Trip to library

WOO, SCIENCE.


Some random mix couple, so sweet.





Shadows.

this photo so cool.



This is the result of feeling hyper.
Shahidah says if I was a cartoon, my face would be like this:
=D

See a chicken anyone?

WOO, I WAS BITTEN BY A VAMPIRE, lol.

Our haven.

Living in agony,
With eyes closed,
syuhada.

yeayeayea.
so, picture time.
feeling hyper last friday.
Trip to library last wednesday.
so, ya, hold on ya.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
BLOGGER GOT SOMETHING WRONG
CANNOT UPLOAD PHOTOS
WTH?


so, today first teensaLIVE lesson,
oklah.
know a number of people.
yesterday was jaslen's(:D) birthday.
STEPHANIE!
SHE SAY YOU WRAP WITH A LOT OF NEWSPAPER!
I THOUGHT YOU WERE JOKING!

Oh ya, i forgot to thank jeremy.
Thanks for the shinedown cd n lost.

Friday night I watched Lost for 3 hours,
& I didn't feel really bored.
MIRACULOUS YEA?
Since I used to say PB better,
it still is actually.
So maybe I continue watching today.
I forgot when I got fight with Jing Yi over who gets tray 7 for the science experiment.
"If got seven,I would have taken it."
"HAHA, YOU GOT SIXTEEN"
ok, i'm crapping.

Yesterdays practice,
The conductor ask me hit the cymbals harder.
I hithithit.
Then finally this erhu guy walked to my place and hit louder than me?
Anybody know his name?

JULIAN CAME BACK
"You working ar?"Eric asked.
"No"
I eyed him from the corner of my eye,
and gave him THAT look.
"I remember telling your group leader I was."
AND HE SMIRKED.
That taught me not to trust him ever again.
When he came,
"You what, Posh Beckham ar?"
AND I WAS @*$//~#&*
First of all, ITS POSH SPICE, DUMBO.
SECOND, I LOOK NOTHING LIKE HER.

I WAS GONE FOR SO FEW DAYS
MY TAGBOARD FLOODED.

to celeste,
uh, no comment.

to yanyi & elizabeth,
okok, i give.

TO YILIANG,
DON'T ANYHOW SAY YOU HATE PERC LEH,
YOU TALKING TO SOMEONE IN PERC LEH!

Who's Al Pacino?



Oh, the one who play The Godfather, ceh.



JOSEPHJOSEPHJOSEPHJOSEPHJOSEPH

He's just old.

But hotter than Al Pacino.

AND ITS JOSEPH FIENNES, JEREMY.

I'm very pissed suddenly.
So, listen to what I have to say.

I hate people who act cool just because they are in different schools.
[YOU WOULDN'T SAY HI TO ME]
I detest biased people.
[like people i do not want to mention]
I hate it when Syahid changes face.
[it means, he can talk to you one second,
another he will ignore you]
I hate it when -ehhem- is always with that cello girl.
[are you the YQ that I saw on the table]
I hate it when I don't see -ehhem-.
I hate it when people throws away your idea,
without looking at it.
I hate gossip reporters
[Emo cult warning? wth? what shit is that?]
I hate it when racists strike.
I hate it when my grandma rants.
I hate it when people simply cannot be bothered.
I hate Derrick.
I hate assumer-s of SPARKS being clever.
I hate most 2r6 people.
I hate Jessie's character.
I hate it when Celeste smiles.
I hate it when he doesn't care.
I hate side-taking.

Many more things are detested but,
I'm too scarred.

lyrics mean a lot to me.

Joseph Fiennes,
one of the actors of The Merchant of Venice.
hothothothothothothot
He also got voice the friend of Sinbad, in the cartoon movie. :D
BUT 37 YEARS OLD

I've waited for you,
I've waited so long.

Adapted from Crank

Hello.
Hey, gorgeous. I miss you.
Melted butter.
Oh, Adam. Me too.
I can't stay on long.
Phone bills you know.
Hot butter burned.
Ok.
Just want you to know i love you.
Burned good.
Me too. Always.
Lince is coming home tomorrow.
She'll be okay.
Burned bad.
I'm glad.
Bree? I've been thinking.
We're a long way apart.
Sizzled.
I know.
So I think we should give each other permission to see other people.
Spattered.
You want permission?
You have mine.
Just think of me from time to time.
Welted.
I don't need your permission, Buddy.
And you obviously don't need mine.
Well, ok then.
Better go.
Keep in touch.
I really do love you.
SCARRED

I WAS DAMN TIRED
AND DIDNT GO CO CONCERT
WTH

So, jessie better improve her character.
Maisarah say two malays join CO.
Ok lah.
I WAS REALLY TIRED BECAUSE OF CCA DAY
Celeste was doing EVERYTHING she can to promote CO
"We go overseas trip lah"
blahblah,
some of them were crap that wasn't completely true.
And I was very popular then.
Celeste was pointing to me most of the time
to emphasize that I'M MALAY in CO.
Nvm.
Don't want to explain.
MAISARAH DON'T SKIP PRACTICE
I MISS TALKING TO YOU =D
and add a heart on my name at your links.
Please?
I GAVE YOU TWO SMILES LEH

jeremy, we have to stop this.
or I'm going to start hating you again.
Which I'm currently not

Today visual arts was crap.

Just because you are in SPARKS does not make you special.
From your body language,
I can tell that some of you have that kind of attitude.

By that, she meant to emphasize
on the fact that
MOST of us are proud.
WHAT FUCKING JUDGEMENT IS THAT?

Tomorrow performing for Sec 1.
2-5.30pm
Then must go CO concert
Just now, same thing happened
just like yesterday.
I don't know what is happening to Percussion nowadays.
Like falling apart somehow.
Its partly juniors' fault
but also seniors' fault.
Ok, Jessie gave me something to play in da zu
then sectional, eric, jaslen, jessie and victor suppose to play.
But Eric play too fast,
so as Jessie says.
Everyone has their flaws right?
Except Victor I think, he damn pro lah he
Take for example,
Jessie, she has short arms,
she can't really play the 6 drums.
Stephanie 2r7,
doesn't learn very fast, unlike alfred,
but she can count beat for me. :D
very constant one.
Okay continue,
whatever it is,
Jessie likes to put our juniors down.
No wonder dishearten the juniors.
Yesterday, she told me,
"This song very difficult for you,"
Actually very easy.
She makes me feel stupid.
Stephanie is always left out in practice.
I hate that.
Just now, Eric kena.
I dunno how to explain.
Thats when I explain to Jessie.
Jessie, you are so like Julian,
do you know that?
You put people down.
We feel very disheartened, do you know that?
You should let Eric play.
He came to practice and at last never play anything.
Jarratt never come because it was his choice to not play anything.
Do you know that Stephanie feels left out every practice?
But I got ask her whether she want to play what?
She say don't want.
That's because she was already disheartened.
Do you know that Julian used to pick on her? [thisoneyesterdayisay]
The [songname] got alot of instruments one.
YA, LEE CHUANG/LI QUANG ALREADY SAY.
Can let them play right?

Okay, so Percussion really started to crumble
after two of our most pro members graduate.
Pathetic.
We need to raise our standards leh?

So what do I do with Eric?
Kiss him?
So what do I do with Eric?
Tomorrow I try teach.
[someone screamed]
I thought that was you.
Where I got so vulgar one?
I only say Kiss Him.
Lol.

Okay, to -ehhem-
During practice Eric told me he at canteen
So I went, buy drink.
Spotted him with a bunch of nerd Sec 1 girls.
I stormed off.
Threw my Barley drink.
And sobbed.
I hate 2008 already.
As usual if got sth happen involving -ehhem-,
I would cry myself to sleep.
That probably sounds emo,
but its becoming a habit.
i'm not emo.
But what do you expect?
He's graduating.
I hate 2008 already.


Anyone miss Mr Lee?
I do.

Today I'm gonna blog about a lot of things.
So, first, happy new year guys.
[Jeremy, I was kind enough to let you off
and wish you a happy new year,
but you just don't appreciate things that I do]

2007 past, 2008 came.
Elizabeth say she nerd at starting of the year,
THEN I WHAT?
Walao, my skirt was long,
my fringe pulled back,
My only friend was Jaslen.
Ok so joined CO start,
liked it
blahblahblah
fought with jeremy
Fell in love with -ehhem-
Got into a relationship with -urgh- instead of -ehhem-.
studystudystudy
examexamexam
broke up with -urgh-
he-who-must-not-be-named
was there when i needed someone
[please note that i use diff names for diff ppl]
holiday,
still got CO.
heroesheroesheroes
Got my fucking hair cut.
&....
2008

School,
first day.
sat beside Nat,
she very hyper, very fun
Syahid, chairman.
SYAHID VERY STUCK UP,
DUN WANT TO TALK TO ME AND NAT.
Surrounded by George,JeremyLoh and Weisheng.
Oh ya weisheng, I watching Kung Fu Dunk with Aida.
All very stuck up,
none of them communicate with us.
So we talk among ourselves,
pathetic right?
Sat at far corner of classroom.
beside a mushroom.
MRS LOCK FORM TEACHER!
WOOO
Math, oklah.
Ms Alice Chua.
LITERATURE
WHY NOONE BLOG ABOUT LITERATURE??
Mr Lim very fun one,
he got say "something crappy"
Then I dunno why I soo hyper that part of the day one,
I said loudly,"WOO, YOU SAID CRAP!!"
Then everyone's head turn to look at me,
and started laughing.
I was thinking out loud, wth.
Then Mr Lim was like, "Whats your name, ar? I like you."
Everyone was going "WOAH"
Ok thats the end of literature incident.
3pm got CO,
I AM SO PISSED WITH JESSIE
SHE DAMN BIASED LAH SHE
Waited outside CD shelter,
until Koknam arrived with the key.
Oh and, I fucking hate my bag,
I DON'T EVEN LIKE PINK!
Got in waitwaitwait,
played the snare drum and bass drum and hi-hat,
I learn from www.freedrumlessons.com
taught Eric and Alfred
Then called Jessie,
She was like, "Oh, I forgot to tell you change 4 pm"
That didn't trigger my anger.
So practice songs for CCA day,
more like,
only Jessie, Stephanie Sec 3 and Alfred play liao.
Just because two of then got their grade test already
and another is in charge of the pai gu, i think.
The rest never do anything.
Then got one song, need a lot of instrument,
again Jessie,Steph and Alfred play.
GOT LIKE NINE INSTRUMENTS LEH
I raised my voice at Jessie,my very own senior.
"LI QUANG SAY GOT NINE INSTRUMENT RIGHT?
WHY DON'T YOU LET OTHERS PLAY?!!!!!"
She simply replied,"The other instrument all so weak."
WHAT KIND OF EXCUSE IS THAT?
All the time,
Eric was arranging
the crash cymbal,
the hi-hat,
low tom,
mid tom,
bass & snare drum.

Then he play during practise.
No wonder Celeste shouted "SHUT UP LAH ERIC"
Oh and someone thought out loud and said,
"Actually you quite pretty,"
and I heard it.
Finish, Jessie say tomorrow come on time,
then I SHOUTED "YOU COME ON TIME LAH"
Then she went to talk to some people,
then she repeat, "Practice tomorrow 3.30 come on time"
Thats when I snapped,
"YOU TELL US COME ON TIME,
YOU ALSO COME ON TIME LAH.
TOLD ME 3.00,
THEN SAY,'I FORGOT TELL YOU CHANGE 4.00'
FORGET?
WHAT KIND OF EXCUSE IS THAT?!!"
Then someone, i think the name Chuiying, say
SEE SHE ANGRY ALREADY
OF COURSE I'M ANGRY
Then I walked out of CD shelter.
So pissed,
AND I REACHED HOME,
i started throwing tantrums.
and here I am,

Looks like a fight will happen on the first day of school,over a damn band called My Chemical Romance.

Ok,I've to clarify one thing.I understand why the hell people like MCR.I get it.I said they are ok,nothing special.I said they were a fucking waste of time.But did I say they suck?No!Goodness me,for all you MCR lovers,listen to Shinedown's "I Dare You",my fave song of all time,before you say anything.And I know you have never heard of this stupid song before,ok Syuhada.

If you think they are okay,
DON'T WASTE YOUR FUCKING TIME ON THEM.
SINCE YOU GOT SO MUCH OF IT ANYWAY.
BY SAYING THEY'RE A WASTE OF TIME,
YOU'RE SAYING THEY SUCK TOO,
MY DEAR PUNK.
Yes I've never heard of that 'stupid' song,
as quoted by you.
So, in conclusion, my 'dear' jeremy,
I dunno how this fight started, but
please understand that i never said you said
they suck.
I just said
'I'd vowed i'll kick anyones' ass who go against them'

Yours sincerely,
Syuhada,
the MCR-lover.

I'm finally getting a new pair of shades,
I ask my grandmother for $5,
just like that I got it,
my dad, little bit difficult lah,
but he gave me $10.
so I only pay $2.90.
I'm buying at BHG.
Tomorrow, maybe I going Pasir Ris Park,
MAYBE, gatecrash Shafique's class gathering,
but MAYBE NOT.
I not that mean.
Ask EGG babes already,
but not confirm.
So maybe I going alone,
listen to music,
walkwalk.
Anyone want go with me?
Actually got a guy ask me watch him perform,
but I not sure where.
& that was the first time a guy
sort of ask me out,
and I decline.
wth rite?
Just want to have some fun tomorrow, last day of 2007.
A very dramatic year for me,
say goodbye to naive old me,
& hello new matured me.

to lame name,
this is my reply to you
I am not going to delete your message or whatever.
May I please clarify with you that you do not know
who I am talking about,
or why I hate her so much.
If you do, please understand that
I am not an insecured freak.
Nor am I someone who cares what people think.
I care about what I think of myself,
thats why when I say I'm ugly,
I THINK I am ugly,
That is my own thought.
Even if someone says the opposite of what I think,
I will accept it and consider it.
Another thing is that,
No, I am not jealous of her,
because in my sense, I think I am better than her
in one thing,
which is 'socializing'.
And no, I am not scared she will ruin EVERYTHING
in that sense.
The word 'Everything' is a placeholder, which is a word that
is used to replace something else.
In this case, the phrase is
"me and my besties gossiping about her big hair"
Please get that straight.
The next thing I wanna talk about is,
she does interfere with my life,
you wouldn't know that.
Unless you ARE her.
Last thing i want to say,
you see me bothering her life, PUNK?

Sincerely yours,
Syuhada,
the 'insecured' freak.

Thanks people who comment bout my hair.

OMG, SHAI,
YESTERDAY'S SUPERNATURAL WAS ABOUT VAMPIRES
WHO DON'T DRINK HUMAN BLOOD,
JUST LIKE THE CULLENS.
AND THE NAME OF THE EPISODE WAS "Bloodlust"
Tau,there is such a thing as Bloodlust

Ok,to more important stuff.

My Chemical Romance.What a fucking waste of time.Ok,don't get me wrong,I like their songs.But why should Teenagers scare the living shit out of me?I poop everyday.Why would I join the Black Parade when I can easily do solo stand-up?
That's why I don't envy MCR.I never said they are bad to the core.They are just ok.Nothing special.

Don't you ever say that again,
you just don't get them.
If you don't like them,
AT LEAST RESPECT PEOPLE'S CHOICE OF MUSIC.

Ok, yesterday, Shai send me an episode of Mtv Sweet Sixteen,
like so cool,
the Birthday girl so lucky,
HELLO,
WHO THE HELL GETS MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE
TO PERFORM FOR HER
ON HER BIRTHDAY????
& she got an IPHONE, A CANON PROFESSIONAL CAMERA,
GERARD WAY SINGING TO HER,
GET UP CLOSE WITH THE [abandidunnothenameof],
TAKING PHOTOS WITH MCR.
What can be more perfect than having
a birthday like that?

Then she also send an episode of LA ink,
Haven't finish watching yet,

Now i have to finish my English homework damn,
One more thing,
jeremy if you have something to say about MCR
say it to my face,
If you dunno yet,
I'd vowed i'll kick anyones' ass who go against them

SOMEONE REBONDED HER HAIR,
AND SHE'S MAKING ME FEEL MORE UGLY THAN EVER

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

***** HAS REBONDED HER HAIR, SHE MAKE ME LOOK LIKE IM AN UGLY DUCKLING

?

WHAAAT?

FUCK YOU'RE KIDDING

OMGOMGOMGOMG

GO TO HER FRENSTER

NO WAY MAYBE SHE PHOTOSHOPPED IT

OMGOMG, RILI SHE MAKE ME LOOK UGLY WITH MY SHORT HAIR

NOOOOO !!!!!

it's okay syu,

AN EVEN BIGGER NO, FOM MEE, THE UGLY DUCKLING

the leaves will grow back, i'll tell ya

I CUT MY HAIR AIDA, AND IT WENT ALL WRONG, I LOOK LIKE FUCKING FOOL

it's okay.

if she makes fun of your hair, we call our abangs and kakaks and smack!

SHE WILL NEVER DO THAT, INSTEAD PEOPLE WILL FLOCK TO HER, BECAUSE OF HER NEW HAIR

WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO RUIN EVERYTHING

it'll grow back

hope so,IM GOING TO SCHOOL IN A TAXI

i'll sambut you

lol.

lol

and i wont be wearing my specs, at least until before class start

oh, you're really upset?

YES

it's okaaay

it wud be nice to know that im preetier than someone in class

you are pretty!!

not with my effing short hair

it'll grow back.

not in one week

maybe two!

ya, maybe

relax babeh

god

=D

People just don’t understand.
My Chemical Romance are so passionately loved by the fans because, in a way, they fuel the fire that keeps them living.
But at the same time, the haters truly despise them because they just don’t get it.
In my opinion, unless you understand when MCR are coming from, you have no right to make an assumption or an opinion on them.

quoted by,
actually i don't know

READ IT JEREMY

Chelsea got in,yea.
Melisa S got out,YEA.
But, Asia won,
I'm talking about Pussycat Dolls Presents:The Search For The Next Doll
Yes, I watch that damn show.
During the elimination part,
Robin,the creator of PCD,commented on Chelsea, than Melisa, and said.
"But it comes down to this,"
If she had said 'and' instead of 'but'
Chelsea would have been eliminated.
Common sense

Thats when she broke down,
she tried to convince herself that she's someone,
someone unique.
But she couldn't.
She couldn't help the tears.
Her sister's presence had always caused
an increase sense of inferiority to her.
With her ridiculously short hair and round face,
she kept saying she was ugly.
But then, she realized that God had given her
what she would always have,
her face,
& she should be thankful for that.
It doesn't matter if someone is more beautiful,
it just depends on how she sees it.
The world isn't divided into pretty or ugly people.
People shouldn't judge others on looks alone.
Whats the point of having a heart then?
She could be a very beautiful person if she believes in herself,
& she will,
At last, a beauty is born.

WOOO,
Shai & I have our Edwards!

Thats Jeremy Sumpter, Shai's Edward.
He's gorgeous, really.


Oh god, Freddie Boath is indescribable.
& he's my Edward

to jeremy,
DIARY OF JANE IS SOO LONG AGO,
WHY DON'T YOU LISTEN TO AVENGED SEVENFOLD?

i have a few things to say,

to jeremy,
i'm not stupid. Just remember that.

to zul,
fyi, i support Man U too

to shafique,
alas, i didn't need to go to hilton.

to celeste,
i dunno if you ever read this,
but please stop smiling at me just because you know.

to koknam,
thanks and sorry for irritating you the other day

to shahidah,
i'm gonna stop going mc for a while, (savemoneyformcrconcert)

tothatfuckingbastard,
i got over you.

tothatbitch,
you can have him, i don't care

to jessie,
i will not give up.

to shawn,
can i have it? Please?

to stephanie,
thanks for everything.

to farris,
thanks for sending me A7X songs

to EGG babes,
stick together, alrite?

to imen,
stab that bitch!

to jeremy again,
thanks for being there, even though i'm still mad at you.

to indira,
hope we meet again.

to aida,
joey,peter, and tom is loved.

to jaslen,
lets say goodbye to our 'beloved' seniors

to all,
i wish you a happy new year.

hey,thats a lot.

I Don't Love You drum cover by a SIX YEAR OLD


I Don't Love You performed ny The Morning After, a singaporean band
Quite good leh

ohmyfuckinggoose,
check out the drummer in this video,
he's like, HOT!
i think aida will like him.
but, no way i saw him first!!!

bye mcr.

Ok, rewind back to friday, co graduation party.

Theme: 'something' yellow
Venue: Guess where,
yup, thats correct, school library.

ok so it was my first time outside with my totally sucky hair,
unlike elizabeth's which is like so damn straight


my bedroom+studyroom+blahblah is very messy sia.

ok, so, we were separated into groups.
I'm in group 5.
Leader:Yi Liang, & someone-whose-name-i-cant-remember
I'm in same group with Ek Jun & Jarratt.
Then, most of the time i solved Ek Jun's budget rubiks.
[its like so damn difficult to turn.]
Then, I had enough of it.
I stopped solving one side.
He said,"You're the most selfish junior I ever had."
Then he did that sound,
the signature ekjun-pouting-and-sulking-sound
then i imitate him.
then jarratt came & i ask him how was his kao ji,
then he said sth then, alfred say he fail.

We played concentration.
then so fast already, break.

Ek Jun sit like ah pek.
See, there's no yellow colour thing on him,
Jessie also.
Then, he showed me this one single piece of yellow-coloured-thread on his blue shirt.

Thats Alfred, yes the i-think-i-fail-my-kaoji alfred.

Continued with some games. which i wasnt paying attention much,
since i was playin gwith rubiks again
& watching yi liang, the pro-er person in solving rubiks than me.

I do know that people were forced to eat weird stuff.
& Jarratt was the first representative of our group.
He supposed to eat udon with chilli sauce & soy sauce.
He was like so eager to eat.

The far-left person was wearing spongebob.

End,
Percussion took down the
"Time To Graduate" letters & spelled lots of words.
Above is just one of them.

Percussion went arcade.
Met family after that.
Mum, Dad & Sis changed handphones.
Mum from Nokia 6125 to Nokia 6300
Dad from Nokia 6280 to N81[not 8gb]
Sis, from SE K608i to SE W580i
Me, from K610i to K610i-scratched & always off itself.

& you have just read the chapter of one day of Story Of My Life

alright

i prefer school than holidays.
damn, i know, not a soul is viewing my blog,
since the hit counter is rising mostly because of my very own viewing.

fine, i'll go talk to pete.

bummer,

can someone just slap me in the face
& ask me to stop emo-ing,
please?

SSSS

story of my life, get in.

urgh,
arrogance is hated.
arrogance is stupid.
stupid people are stupid.
just like that bastard who stabbed me.

dugh

Story of my life, get in.

EK JUN!!
MCR IS EMO!!!

someone, please,
i NEED to go to My Chem Concert,
I need tix!!
someone, who's kind enough,
PLEASE donate more or less 95 bucks to me.

yyyy

you reached 1000, bloggie.
people, if you love me, help me reach 2000

story

We have to talk.
I've been wanting to say this.
Go on.
Well, I think we should stay away from each other.
What?! Why?!
You love me.
No, I loved you.
Its gone, the feelings gone.
Its her, isn't it?
That bitch.
NO,
YOU ARE THE BITCH SYUHADA.
Don't try to frame her.
I know you're trying to make her look guilty.
Don't think I'm stupid just because you have the brains.
Just shut up, you bastard.
NO, YOU SHUT UP, BITCH.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE,
I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN.
I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE LIKE YOU CRAPING.

& she stood there,
tears falling from her face.

sciencer&d

stupid people are stupid.

ok

ok, i'm switching back to emo mode

tagg

Tag reply[to MUMMY]

&& linked =)

hr

i am now chatting with jeremy,
and he says i'm emo,
cos i listen too much mcr.
wth
am i?

i thought

This post is for that someone who offended me.

i thought we shared something,
but we didn't.
i thought we connected,
but we never did.
i thought we were quits,
but we weren't.
i thought we had it going,
but you refused.
i thought we were close,
but you didn't want to be.
i thought i knew you,
but i didn't.
i thought you considered my feelings,
but you hurt me real bad.
i thought you cared,
but you're just plain selfish.
i thought i trusted you,
but your words broke that trust.
i thought we understood each other,
but you didn't.

& i thought we were friends,
well i thought wrong.

ughh

what does he think i am,
a nobody?
a nobody that is pushed around all the time?
a nobody who doesn't care?
a nobody who doesn't have emotions?
since when did anyone ever care about me.
he ignored me,
my feelings.
so i'm showing a side of myself
that noone's ever seen
i have to stand up,
i don't care if he does that to me again.
i need to show that i'm no pushover,
i need him to shut up.
just shut up and get out of my life.
to think that i was talking to him a few minutes ago.
i was clueless,
& he made me feel even more stupid.
does he know how it feels like?
to think that you're a loser.
i care,
he doesn't.
& i am unloved again.

Malaysia trip

The trip was fun.
Will post about it later.


Bye.

GOOD

Parent meeting.

"Basically, Syuhada is a good girl,
very consistent.
I'm very happy with her.
I like teaching her.
I'm sure if she improves,
she'll be one of the top students for O'levels"

[as quoted by Mrs Lock]

yo

SPARKIES,
WE
ARE
EXPANDING OUR TERRITORY
TO OUR NEIGHBOUR IN
42 HOURS 45 MINUTES 58 SECONDS

[in simple human language, we're going Malaysia, babehhhh]

I'm still here

EOY over.
No co.
Half of Hari Raya almost gone.
Collected like almost 250 bucks.
Then ytd spent $50 on my new bag.
Love it.
Bought it at tm.
Went with farhana, her cousin and amirah.

Today I never go sch lor.
Went to ICA building to make new passport.
Hope people will miss me.
Yesterday, I nominated myself to become sc.
I had only 3 votes from my class.
Like so pathetic rite?
I thought I was just too proud,
but Steph and farhana kept assuring me that I wasnt
Maybe lor.

I really don't know what to write about
cos my life's a mess right now.
I can't think straight.
Someone help me through this.
Please.
I was worried enough without class troubles,
now look,
two fights in two days.
Are we r7 or what?
We can't be too joking right.
So,
JIA YOU GUYS!

p.s. thanks jhong for bringing spiderman3 for us to watch
I fell in love with Tobey Mcguire's butt all over again.

Ok, tag replies.

Syu:Yan Yi
I'm updating lor

Syu:Elly
Went there A LOT of times, tagged it too. Thanks though. :))
P.s. He's EMO. Yay!!!

Syu:coolboyz
Cannot leh.

Syu:xinrong
And linked ;)

Syu:nisah
love them.

Syu:hanis
and tagged ;)

Syu:aida
HEY

posted

Ok, I'm posting
after 3649127865 days.

break.

Ok,
I broke my promise.
I have something to say.
I made up my mind the other day to stop liking him.
Coincidentally,
a random guy ask me for stead.
I agreed.
That was yesterday.
Today, he smsed me a lot about his ex.
So I indirectly asked for a break.
Because he didnt realized that I was his stead.
So I THINK I'm gonna go back to liking that someone.
GOSH
this is complicated man.

hiatus

and don't expect me to post next week, alright?
I'm on hiatus.
I don't even know what that means.

syuhada.

CONGRATS

oh ya,

CONGRATS BLOGGIE!
YOU REACH 500 ALREADY!

actually more than that lah.
i a bit slow.

Its been baboon days since I posted.
Exams, exams.
& GOSH
I STOOD, LIKE AN INCH AWAY FROM HIM.
My arm just FROZE UP.

Tag replies.

SYU:I LOVE YOU:
WHO ARE YOU

syuhada.