SSSS

story of my life, get in.

urgh,
arrogance is hated.
arrogance is stupid.
stupid people are stupid.
just like that bastard who stabbed me.

dugh

Story of my life, get in.

EK JUN!!
MCR IS EMO!!!

someone, please,
i NEED to go to My Chem Concert,
I need tix!!
someone, who's kind enough,
PLEASE donate more or less 95 bucks to me.

yyyy

you reached 1000, bloggie.
people, if you love me, help me reach 2000

story

We have to talk.
I've been wanting to say this.
Go on.
Well, I think we should stay away from each other.
What?! Why?!
You love me.
No, I loved you.
Its gone, the feelings gone.
Its her, isn't it?
That bitch.
NO,
YOU ARE THE BITCH SYUHADA.
Don't try to frame her.
I know you're trying to make her look guilty.
Don't think I'm stupid just because you have the brains.
Just shut up, you bastard.
NO, YOU SHUT UP, BITCH.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE,
I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN.
I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE LIKE YOU CRAPING.

& she stood there,
tears falling from her face.

sciencer&d

stupid people are stupid.

ok

ok, i'm switching back to emo mode

tagg

Tag reply[to MUMMY]

&& linked =)

hr

i am now chatting with jeremy,
and he says i'm emo,
cos i listen too much mcr.
wth
am i?

i thought

This post is for that someone who offended me.

i thought we shared something,
but we didn't.
i thought we connected,
but we never did.
i thought we were quits,
but we weren't.
i thought we had it going,
but you refused.
i thought we were close,
but you didn't want to be.
i thought i knew you,
but i didn't.
i thought you considered my feelings,
but you hurt me real bad.
i thought you cared,
but you're just plain selfish.
i thought i trusted you,
but your words broke that trust.
i thought we understood each other,
but you didn't.

& i thought we were friends,
well i thought wrong.

ughh

what does he think i am,
a nobody?
a nobody that is pushed around all the time?
a nobody who doesn't care?
a nobody who doesn't have emotions?
since when did anyone ever care about me.
he ignored me,
my feelings.
so i'm showing a side of myself
that noone's ever seen
i have to stand up,
i don't care if he does that to me again.
i need to show that i'm no pushover,
i need him to shut up.
just shut up and get out of my life.
to think that i was talking to him a few minutes ago.
i was clueless,
& he made me feel even more stupid.
does he know how it feels like?
to think that you're a loser.
i care,
he doesn't.
& i am unloved again.

Malaysia trip

The trip was fun.
Will post about it later.


Bye.

GOOD

Parent meeting.

"Basically, Syuhada is a good girl,
very consistent.
I'm very happy with her.
I like teaching her.
I'm sure if she improves,
she'll be one of the top students for O'levels"

[as quoted by Mrs Lock]

yo

SPARKIES,
WE
ARE
EXPANDING OUR TERRITORY
TO OUR NEIGHBOUR IN
42 HOURS 45 MINUTES 58 SECONDS

[in simple human language, we're going Malaysia, babehhhh]

I'm still here

EOY over.
No co.
Half of Hari Raya almost gone.
Collected like almost 250 bucks.
Then ytd spent $50 on my new bag.
Love it.
Bought it at tm.
Went with farhana, her cousin and amirah.

Today I never go sch lor.
Went to ICA building to make new passport.
Hope people will miss me.
Yesterday, I nominated myself to become sc.
I had only 3 votes from my class.
Like so pathetic rite?
I thought I was just too proud,
but Steph and farhana kept assuring me that I wasnt
Maybe lor.

I really don't know what to write about
cos my life's a mess right now.
I can't think straight.
Someone help me through this.
Please.
I was worried enough without class troubles,
now look,
two fights in two days.
Are we r7 or what?
We can't be too joking right.
So,
JIA YOU GUYS!

p.s. thanks jhong for bringing spiderman3 for us to watch
I fell in love with Tobey Mcguire's butt all over again.

Ok, tag replies.

Syu:Yan Yi
I'm updating lor

Syu:Elly
Went there A LOT of times, tagged it too. Thanks though. :))
P.s. He's EMO. Yay!!!

Syu:coolboyz
Cannot leh.

Syu:xinrong
And linked ;)

Syu:nisah
love them.

Syu:hanis
and tagged ;)

Syu:aida
HEY

posted

Ok, I'm posting
after 3649127865 days.

break.

Ok,
I broke my promise.
I have something to say.
I made up my mind the other day to stop liking him.
Coincidentally,
a random guy ask me for stead.
I agreed.
That was yesterday.
Today, he smsed me a lot about his ex.
So I indirectly asked for a break.
Because he didnt realized that I was his stead.
So I THINK I'm gonna go back to liking that someone.
GOSH
this is complicated man.

hiatus

and don't expect me to post next week, alright?
I'm on hiatus.
I don't even know what that means.

syuhada.

CONGRATS

oh ya,

CONGRATS BLOGGIE!
YOU REACH 500 ALREADY!

actually more than that lah.
i a bit slow.

Its been baboon days since I posted.
Exams, exams.
& GOSH
I STOOD, LIKE AN INCH AWAY FROM HIM.
My arm just FROZE UP.

Tag replies.

SYU:I LOVE YOU:
WHO ARE YOU

syuhada.

whatever

Exams are approaching
& I'm seriously unprepared.
Like duh.

Oh my gosh,
I suddenly feel that I am not so photogenic.
Because I can't even pose for a photo properly.
In my phone, there's like,
few.

Oh ya, I saw him.
How the hell am I supposed to end this damn feeling?
Look, I know that he's graduating and all next year.
Well, Farhana will understand this feeling.
She's in love too.
Just like me.
But unlike me,
her crush's in Sec 2.
Mine Sec 3.
EXPRESS,
TRIPLE SCIENCE.

Ohmygosh,
people of CHINESE ORCHESTRA,
help me do something.
I NEED TO FORGET HIM,
but I can't.
& that's the problem.
If I can't forget him.
I have to make something happen.
What?
More importantly,
HOW?
A guy like that
will never fall for
a girl like me.
Right?
Even if there are like other guys out there,
who's in love with me,
just as EWANNA said,
I won't, like,
be FAITHFUL.
Right?
Because I still love him.


Ok, I know i like to post lots of photos.
Why not?
These are just random stuff, alright?

This was the squishy snail which
Shahidah ended up touching with her feet.



I went to Ikea. (I like going there)
Then, this lamp reminds me of Harry Potter.
Oh ya, I just learnt that Mr Lee Kuan Yew has another name,
Mr Harry Lee.
Wooooo.


Umm, in case you can't see, I was posing with this thingy.(see below)


It looks like an egg, but its a candle.



I think this thingy's for the ice.



&& I love this cushion, but my mum just won't let me buy it.


I suddenly feel like buying something cuddly.
Like Stephanie's Mimi Mushroom.
But NOT like that RAT.


I like this sign,
at the Ikea,
I dunno why.


I like this dining table,
see, the chairs are curved to fit the table's shape.
So cool.

Note: To the Ikea staff, I am not a furniture designer but a student who loves photography. I hope this is not copyrighted stuff.


Aren't it CUTE???
I have a thing for plush toys these days.


I do not know this girl.
I was holding this lion,
when suddenly,
she took it from me,
indicating that I take a picture.
So I did.

This is Shai's rubric(is that how you spell it) cube.


This my face, & I'm signing off.

Bye.

syuhada.

a

Oh ya,
saw Tek Saing yesterday,
I was waiting for a bus at interchange.
Then I walking along the line waiting thingy,
I heard my name.
I turned around.
He was there.
I just smiled and waved.
I really miss EVPS.
I dunno why.

Syuhada.

for you, if you ever get to know me.

I've never felt like this before.
I love you,
And I mean it.
You're my one and only.
I can't bear to see you go.
Tears wet my face,
As you fade from sight,
From my life,
Out of reach.
You disappear.
I still love you,
Even though I'm a stranger
To you.
I want you to know
That I'll be there,
Longing for you to turn up.
My heart leap.
Misery flows through me,
When I see nothing
but dark space.
No you, no light.
No matter what,
I love you.
You don't know,
how much I dream of you,
how much I long for you,
how much I love you so.
Holding on tight,
hoping that you'll find me there.
Take my hand, please.
And because of you,
I live.
As days pass by,
my love for you grows.
I gotta speak my mind.
But how?
You don't know me.
Sometimes.
its better if I just let go.
Let go of you.
But there's hope.
Faith.
Belief.
Someday,
I know,
It will happen.
Why don't you get it?
I love you.
My heart flutter.
I melt,
At the mere sight of you.
The distance between us,
is never enough,
to break my adoration,
this feeling.
I try not to imagine,
what will happen,
when you're gone.
You need to know this,
before you disappear.
These few words,
it means something.
In fact,
it means everything to me.

I love you,

& will always do.

i'llgetemoish

Yesterday, yesterday.
Got relief teacher for CCL.
HE SPEAKS MALAY
cos he's from Malaysia.
AND HE TEACHED CHINESE, USING MALAY LANGUAGE.
HOW WONDERFUL IS THAT?

Today, mother tongue,
Irsyad sat between me & Natasya.
HE IS SO DAMN FUNNY SIA.

&& I LOVE WATER BABIES!

syuhada

him

Oh ya, one last pic.



Outside Sakae Sushi.
Find him yourself.
So easy.

Syuhada

i'llgetemo

Today took
lots&LOTS
of pictures.
Seriously.

I absolutely LOVE
Yan Yi's phone.
Here's a picture.(part of it)

SO preety sey..
I know Wei Sheng also want that phone.
Now, I also think its preety.
Really....


I dunno when they take this.
& in case you don't know,
thats me.


Farhana with her reborned hair.
So preety.


Cute sey..

Mr Teo rocks.
for NOT confiscating our phones when
we use them.



ATIKA-PLEASE LEAVE US MALAY GIRLS ALONE. WE ARE GETTING AGITATED BY YOU AND YOU ARE LIKE THIS BUTTERFLY THAT WON'T GO AWAY. WE DON'T NEED YOUR COMPANY.


Science was exceptionally & surprisingly
FUN.
REALLY.
We did experiments on
distillation & chromatography.

This is Yan Yi's strip thingy.


And this is mine. suckysycky.

And this is Zulaiha's.


Zulaiha actact.


This is me,Yan Yi,Elizabeth and Zulaiha's distillation se-up.

Distillation is so cool.


Zulaiha actact again.

&& the drawer of our bench at science is so filthy.
Look.

Disgusting.

Oh some pictures from last homec lesson.


This is what I was going to cook.
You guys see that ball of unshaped dough.
Yup thats mine.
I made it.
People were laughing like mad.
Especially Syahid.


Look what someone did to her apron.
Haha.

Oh ya just now,
after school,
Mrs Lock talked to me.

She said,
"Hey, Syuhada. This morning during the debate you keep doing this."
And she made an impression
of me flinging my fringe across my face.

She continued,
"I was going to count how many time you do that."

Just like how I count how many time Miss Xu wear that red dress.
Laugh out loud.

I actually wanted to talk to her about Eng Yong.
How he was lonely at times.
How the boys treat him.
So badly.
Sometimes I pity him.
Sometimes I don't.
But guyss,
he's not that bad..
I know I am going to get response from this
so, I'm signing out.

Bye, people.

Syuhada.

noco

I'm so depressed.
There's no CO practice
Yesterday,
Today,
Until after exams.
I didn't see him
For the WHOLE week.
&& there's no Prison Break
to look forward to.
Sigh.
Dad fixed my phone already.
So no worries,
For me.
How am I supposed to survive this SEPTEMBER?
I love A Lonely September by Plain White T's.
They rock.
Exams coming veryVERY soon.
Show & Tell, I don't know what to do about.
Someone
GIVE ME IDEAS!

That's right people.
I dropped my phone into the toilet bowl.
No comment.
Just that I totally suck.

Photos

Angry seh..


Baboon posing..


Apple tea rocks.



Two cans balancing.


Up, up & away...


Minty & Sweet.


Chocolate.


What I cooked for Homec Practical.



What Zulaiha cooked for Homec Practical.







The Stray Cat which I ADORE so Much.



Deoxyribo Nucleic Acid are cool.


Element Tile



The Two Books Which I Bought.







1r7 babes & dudes(urgh).


See No Evil, Hear No Evil, Say No Evil.(Is that right?)


Me & my Sis.


Aren't they Pweety??