I'm depressed

WOOO, NO MORE CT!!
Math very easy,
except got one question,
the, (x-y)square=25 and xy=14, find (x+y)square.
I KNOW THE ANSWER,
But I not sure I put 71 or 81.
The montage thingy at the back, you guys can see I work out the sum one.


Its,
(x-y)square=xsquare-2xy+ysquare
=xsquare-2(14)+ysquare
So, its,
25=xsquare-28+ysquare
25+28=xsquare+ysquare
53=xsquare+ysquare
Then expand the(x+y)square
xsquare+2xy+ysquare=xsquare+ysquare+28
=53+28
=81

Lit I die lah.
I dunno what's self-righteous.
Then I wrote some crap.
They give us like how many pages,
SIAO THINK ESSAY ISIT?

WOOO, SHAI BROUGHT BOBO.






I wanna pinch his nose.
So cute.
Then Shai say his stomach got hole,
no wonder like so weak.
Then we all like pushing his nose, his hands, ears, legs.
He look like sausage sia.

CCL sucks like bullcrap.
I like it better when there's only ex-1r7 people.
The teacher like dunno how to teach.
MR THONG BETTER.
MR LOW EVEN BETTER.
I think I don't wish to learn Chinese anymore.

HAH,
I walked halfway home today,
then near Amirah's block there got 4 birds die.
Very sad leh.
& I read somewhere that sometimes bird die because of some disease they carry.
I scared I get quarantine sia.


I was painting my box, unsure of whether Mrs Tan will come tomorrow
to collect.
Then,while I was painting,
someone called me.
Unfamiliar number,
picked it up,
I thought it was Eric so I was like
holding my phone in one hand and my brush in the other.
He like to talk crap mah.

Hello?
Hello? Is this Syuhada?

Then I realize this voice was too deep for Eric.

This is Koknam.
Oh. Um, hi.

He called to apologize.
About what he sent to me the other day.
He said it was harsh.

I'm glad you realize that.

I really am.
Though what he said was mean,
it was true.

Then talktalktalk,
I hung up.



I was painting mah.

Then my specs kena paint sia.


Tomorrow OLE,
HAH,
Mai, Steph & Yiliang
got Sec 3 camp.
(& all the others lh)

I wanna bring my rubrik cube.
Long time never play.

I LOVE BOBO :)

This whole post is dedicated to Bobo,
Shai's lovely koala.

I LOVE BOBO AND I CAN'T STOP LOVING HIM FOR SHIT.
HE IS SO FUCKING CUTE.
Everytime I see him I wanna bloody pinch his big, black nose.
His body is filled with As, Bs, Cs & Ds.
If I could, I would have filled him with Es, Fs, Gs, Hs, Is, ............................................& Zs.
If he could talk,
I think he would have screamed at us for squeezing in his legs so often.
Everytime you see Bobo, you just wanna touch him.
SHAI, BRING HIM TO SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY

All for nothing.

CHRIS BROWN IS SEXY MAN!!
Okay, ya I was listening to HZ blog song,
which was With You.
Then I watch the vid,
omg,
so nice.
Then I started listening to all his songs,
and with that, I'M LOVING CHRIS.

OHMYGOD,
I AM VERY HAPPY FOR FARHANA
SHE'S FINALLY IN LUCK.

But I'm sad for myself.

He's really not worth the wait.
I cannot just forget him just like that.
Why can't I be like Far,
oh ya,
I forgot I can never be like her.
All the things I did,
it was all for nothing.
And he can never understand that,
and he never will
cause he doesn't even know me.
Who am I to him?
A fucking lousy percussionist.
Who is he to me?
Everything.
So why am I not giving up?
Cause I believe there's such thing as faith.
But whats the use?
He loves her.
And yes,I'm happy for him.
At the same time jealous.
Who cares right?
He found his love,
And I think, soon, I'll find mine.
Which isn't him.
So do I stop liking him,
No.
I still have faith.

someone just kill me.

I suddenly feel like watching a movie man.
COMMON TESTS MIGHT JUST KILL ME.
Come on lah, who the hell care if less people in Europe & North America died during the 1800s & 1900s than now.
Science?
Die lah.
English?
The Tays' chicken keep going to the Gohs' side of the fence.
Hilarious really.
I wonder who gave Huimin that BIG BIG present.
God,
you guys should really listen to Pictures Of You by The Last Goodnight.
It looks like I'm gonna have a very lonely and emo day,
studying things Lavania never teached us.

SINGING IS FUN! :)

Whatever

I am so hyperly today.
I was dared by Imen to shout "I WANT TO JOIN NPCC"
in front of them.
i did.
& every NPCC member turned to look at me.
And I was like, "Uh, it was a dare"
Then looked up saw JR[new percussionist, transferred from dizi]
Beside him was Yiliang,
and beside him was i dunno who.
"YO SUP" to yiliang.
"I forgot your name," to JR.
Imen was like," Who's that?
i only know JR and [theotherguy]"
"Uh, thats yiliang, why?"
"OH"

For the first time in 2008,
i didnt slack during PE.
CAPTAINS BALL IS SO FUN.
Jaslen & me was like,
MY BALL
OUR BALL
THEIR BALL
VOLLEYBALL!

I tell you, Farhana has a phobia of balls man.
Everytime the ball is of one metre from her reach,
her eyes will go O.O
and she will run away.

MAISARAH, YO.

Malay remedial, so fun.
Then I actually wanted to go CD shelter for fun.
Then Eric don't want to go with me.

I'm not okay.

The way you said all those things,
things that I never imagined you could come up with,
you said with so much love for her,
that I thought I would have given you up.
But I didn't.
I regretted that I ever read those words.
Those very words you said to her,
you waited until midnight for her.
I shouldn't have read it.
To me, your blog was bits & pieces of your life,
but now its just a mistake.

Is that true

Uncensored stuff

CHARGE

Julian & Julianer

I'm not okay.

MARY IS THE OBSTACLE

Missing in picture:Nat, Shai.

Happy Valentines. :D
gave EGG babes a hug.
Love you guys.

First time charge phone in school.
Thanks George for helping me block Mrs Tan, XD.
I bet he doesnt read my blog.
I bet nobody read it.

Celeste, HE HAVE VALENTINE.

During practice, I was all serious to make a speech,
but.
We really have to improve.

So I didn't eat lunch.
Sat & stare out of the back door.
Jeremy copied me.
Then atika distracted me asking about math test.
Then I was like jumping cause I haven't do homework.

Jeremy,
no you don't.

Math end,
Walk with Steph and Jaslen.
Then I forgot my wallet.
Walk back.
Eeyore so cute hor.
Julian came back & I'm really thankful for that.
I tell you I was so depressed and heartbroken,
I sing until my throat so sore.
Then Aaron, my junior, the Julianer[that means pro lah]
say,"You like to sing so much."
"No. I like to scream."

I tell you, singing is so fun.
Julian:When you go,
Me:Would you even turn to say,
Julian:"Wo pu ai ni."
Me:Like I did..
Julian: Zuo tian(????? dunno whether correct)

Julian&me:Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading.
Julian:So sick & tired of all the needless beating.

Juniors laughlaugh.
Then also I keep singing about bitches and fucking and,

Julian: You don't influence their young minds lah.
Me: Thats called corrupting their young minds.

Then somemore sing all kinds of tv shows songs.
Steph, Victor,Jas & me, to distract the juniors from their first lesson.
Actually the lesson is to shut out all other noise to concentrate & focus lor.

seven pages of remorse

Happy advanced Vday people. :)

I don't sound happy do I?
Well,I'm not.
Monday didn't go to school.
Was watching Lost, then got sick.
Tuesday still sick,
but not so much,
i lend my axe oil to Tauhidah.
the scent not so strong already.
Today, okay lah.
hyper here, hyper there.
My TD art the faces so cute.
Amazingly, I passed my Math test.

OMG MY BAG LOOK FUGLY IN CLASS PHOTO.

People, I don't think I want to become SC already.
So tomorrow got practice,
im gonna talk to the percussion.
We have to improve.
I DONT WANT PERCUSSION TO BE INSULTED


I kept sighing to Jeremy on while MSN-ing just now.
HE keeps saying I molest *
which I didnt.
I was stretching my hands,
he happens to pass by,
& I touched his throat.
Thats all.
"somethingsomething asylum"
"Thats where Syuhada comes from," says Jeremy.

Walked to school with Jaslen today,
missed talking to her lah sey.
Nvm can talk tmr at practice.
So stood with her watch the TD rehearsal, so lame.
THEN THE COMMANDER'S NAME IS MY FATHER'S NAME.
LOLOLOL
I kept saying "My father sia."

OHYA!

My dad has magical hands.
My mp3 breathed again when he touched it.
In other words, he fixed my mp3.
Happyhappyhappyhappy

Syahid & Natasya likes to laugh when I try to teach either one of them Math.
Funny meh.

I say hate more than I say love.
I should be more positive,
just like my guardian angel said.
She told me that the things I do to change is for myself not others.
I lack in self-confidence, she says.
I really should change.
She keeps stressing that.
I'll try to follow her advice.
Will be seeing her in another 3 months, very long hor.
Maybe will miss her.

To all the miseries in the world,
SHOO.

I am not afraid to keep on living

Somehow, people are ignoring me today.
AM I THAT EASILY HATED BY PEOPLE?
stupid.
Don't be surprise if I use my eyeliner again tomorrow.
Now that my best source of music is dead,
I can't even listen to MCR myself.
Nevermind,
tomorrow, I reach school I go listen with my damn phone.

I don't love you,
like I did,
yesterday.

Damn all the bastards.

My mp3 couldn't work, thats why i'm pissed.
Then I realized, music really is my life.

Damn it, I dunno whether I should go join SC or not.
Like, I'm the only one, EVERYONE ELSE SELECTED IN 2R7 DON'T WANT.
WALAO,
THEN NATASYA SOMEMORE SAY,
"I hate SCs, they are a bunch on enthu freaks."
Come on, I need some support,
Mum didn't even pretend to look happy for me, when I told her.
I'm hesitant enough to go to the damn interview.
But like what Imen pointed out, there's nothing to be hyped about.
BUT
SOME PEOPLE WONT BE HAPPY IF I JOIN.
BUT
IF I DONT JOIN, 2R7 WONT EVEN HAVE AN SC
BUT
forget it.

I'll go,
but please don't say anything bad.
I really need some encouragement after what koknam said about me thinking I'm good.
I SHALL WASTE MY ENERGY ASKING PEOPLE WHETHER I'M PROUD ON MONDAY.
Oh, and remind me to punch something when I see koknam.

Pissed

I probably shouldn't have said all those things on yiliang's blog.
DAMN YOU KN,
NO NEED INSULT US CAN?
Ok,
fine,
Percussion really sucks,
yes, I admit that Koknam.
We don't meet the standard.
Fine.
Fine.
We can do without Julian & Ek Jun, thank you very much.
Yes, without them, we sound terrible.
I can't deny Victor is pro.
& I can't deny that he's better than me.
So, yes, I will be more commited to Percussion, dammit.
FINE,
KOKNAM I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG.
& YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO CALL ME AN ASSHOLE.

Okay,
the person who plays Eric in Twilight is like, NOT SUITED to play Eric.
And the Jessica person,
SHE SHOULD CHANGE TO PLAY BELLA, MAN.

Damn.

WTH,
I dunno why my attitude towards teachers nowadays a different.

WAAAA, TOMORROW GOT MATHS TEST,
I supposed to study just now during CNY practice since I not playing mah.
Got caught up with,
stuff.

Just now Math, I thought Miss Chua talking to Syahid,
BUT SHE GOT DAMN SHARP EYES,
You know, Khalis' mentos fell last week,
and was still in class today.
I continue tmr lah.

Adolescent Suicide

Ok, for one thing,
____ LOVES to flirt,
He actually said, "Hey babeh" to me.
And he was totally serious that he would be buying a Valentine for me.
I want a valentine.
Stupid teacher lecture us until bore us.
Stupid conductor for making me go to the front almost every da zu.
& wth?
When I went to the front, Koknam whispered,"Take picture, take picture."
I CAN HEAR LAH!
I NOT DEAF OKAY.

I supposed to go home, not performing for CNY mah,
but I stayed,
then readreadead True Singapore Ghost Stories 3, Steph lend me.
Its as old as me leh. :)

I LOVE MY SHADES:)

Poor Celeste, hand got scraped by a nail on her chair.
YOU LISTEN TO FLYLEAF?
HIGH FIVE!

ok lamelame.

Juniors?
Cannot remember all of them,
except this guy named Randolph,
I told him,
"When you grow up right, you'll be very handsome, you know."
No seriously, he has nice eyes.

Finish watching Lost already.
Trying to remember what happen in PB Season 1.

I can never meet his eyes

Ok, now I'm really convinced that ____ likes ______.

Mr Brightside

Wth,
SEC ONE GIRLS ARE FUCKING FLIRTS AND BITCHES.
I CANT BELIEVE -ehhem- EVEN SAID HI TO THEM.

FINALLY,
after a week of eyeliner-ing,
EVERYONE NOTICES I'M USING IT.

You're never mine.

Surprisingly Art wasn't bad, not as bad as History.
Even though I was scolded and made to sit in front of the class, with George.
Being me, I should have sulked,
but I guess I wasn't me today.
What happened was...

George:& the sound quality for Nokia very good.
Syu:Ya, like N81.
George:N81 sucklah.
Nat:Nokia phone so bulky.
Gloria:Ok...what's that boy & girl's name at the back?[talks to huimin]
Gloria:Syu...ha...na, la. Syu..ha..da.. &..George? Bring your table and chair to the front.

silence
silence
silence

Gloria:Come to the front. George:No need.
Gloria:Come to the front.
George:No need.
Gloria:Come to the front.
George:No need.
Gloria: I ask you to come to the front.
[menotcertainedonwhattodo]

Took our chairs.
Crossed our legs,
& started drawing.

Aida asked me what happened,
i just say I don't know

Then I kept drawing a christmas wreath until George asked me what I was doing.

Syu: I'm drawing a Christmas wr... Can't even pronounce.
George:[tries to pronounce it]

All this time, I kept drawing that, and guess what,
George was trying to draw scenes from Secret for his poster.
Okay, that just doesn't make sense.
What would, Jay Chou, a Tofu Car, a Grand Piano and an Erhu be doing in a poster for a damn restaurant?
Then he act goodygoody, keep going to Gloria.

Gloria:What is your theme for the restaurant?
George:Eurasian, American?
Gloria:This is Singapore you know. Eurasians eat what?

[georgethinks]

George:Potatoes?

At that, I laughed.
POTATOES?
WTH?

Syu:Potatoes?!
George:They don't eat rice what.
Syu:But potatoes?! Classic.

Ok lol. Today there was sth wrong with my digestive system.Then just now science test, got one question sth to do with gastric, I think the answer is distilled water. I kept saying I need distilled water.
Until I found my very ancient axe oil.
Its expired since 2006 lol.
And the first time I sniffed it,
its like fucking nice.
& immediately I started sniffing it again,
& again,
You get my point.
No its like damn nice.
I AM ADDICTED.
And Khalis really need to improve his aiming skills.
EGGz took some pictures today, but its in Tau's phone.
Natasya hair band broke, And its like damn thick.

Saw -ehhem- today.
I know why only see him on Thursday.
He's PE period mah,
WAAAA, CAN SEE HIS SEXY LEGS!

Today's practice change to tomorrow.
Okay, I think ____ likes ______.
His attitude is damn different towards ______.


Bored.

My drug:)

Brown u.

I have to accept it, don't I?

I look so much different elsewhere.

MATT LYSGAARD!!!
HE IS A FUCKING GOOD SINGER.
I WONT TELL YOU WHO HE IS!!

Its a god damn arms race.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=YxlUNYeWs1o

Just watch damnit.
Woo, syafiq r3 noticed I was wearing eyeliner.
But he said my glasses like science lab one.
Sighsigh.
Tomorrow got CO yea?

Okay, yesterday I called Far to complain about my damn _______.
She does nothing but sleep, eat,complain, blames others & stuff.
I really hate her, if anyone wanna know what the words are ask me.
But I'm guessing some of you know already.

WAAAA, tau say I use eyeliner, like very depressing my face.
People don't notice cause my HUGE specs blocking mah.
Except Jiexin.
HAAAA, JIEXIN I GOT ONE MORE PIC OF YOU AND NATASYA.
lame.
lolololol.
But I won't post lah.

Just now Far take video of me singing Jenny Was A Friend Of Mine,
damn funny lah.

Shai bought her eyelash curler to school.
I quite nervous to use, so I didn't.
My stupid hair like so dry just now,
but who cares right?

Godgod, please let him notice me this year.
Sighsigh.
Oh ya, Jaslen has a second piercing, no fair.
I don't think she told her parents, did you?

George says that EVERY teacher read my article on the board behind.
WALAO,
HE COPY MY LITERATURE ANSWERS SIA,
THEN SYAHID COPY HIM.
WTH?
LATER I KENA BLAME HOW

Today, I think 2r7 is hated by a lot of teachers,
including Jamie Tan & Lavania.
EVEN MAZLAN,
FUCKER.
HE LAUGHED WHEN MY PHONE FLEW OUT OF MY HAND.
Some guys were playing and kickin chairs.
MAZLAN WAS MUMBLING SOMETHING ABOUT NOT REPLACING CHAIRS IF ITS DAMAGED OR STH.
WHO CARES?
We complain to Mrs Lock about the teachers already.
I kept raising my hands
behind the backs of these people & thats why my phone fell.
Sigh.
Walked 3/4 the way home with Amirah.
Then started raining, so took bus.
I nothing to do mah.
Don't think there is homework.
Is there?
I seriously want a hoodie.
But I don't want it for my bday.

I WANT A FUCKING HOODIE.

BOB BRYAR AND RAY TORO PLAY GUITAR HERO.

AND BOB IS BETTER AT IT THAN RAY.

The 8 Dwarfs

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAISARAH!!!

Today really isn't a good day.
FUCK
I FORGOT TO BRING HOME MRS LOCK TY GIFT FOR MY PARENTS,
oh well, it isnt really that nice,
BUT SHIT
GOT THANK YOU LETTER FOR MY DAD
SHITSHIT.
MUM SAY SHE DIDNT SEE ME BRING HOME
PLEASEPLEASE LET IT BE AT SCHOOL.

I think I'll stop listening to Iron Maiden.

Omg, I went Hong Zhang's blog, then there was this quiz,
I type my name,
& out comes this.

Syuhada[noun]:
A person of questionable sanity who starts their own cult.

Wow, wonder what that means.
Watching Heroes today.
Maybe Saturday I going arcade or just going out.
If going arcade,
ANYONE WANNA FOLLOW ME OR NOT?

when you wake up, dreams are never real.

You dream about something you want,
you see it so clearly in your mind,
as if you're really there.
For example, you are on a date,
with your crush.
Will you want it to end?
No, I don't want it to.
You wake up,
& you realized it was never really true, wasn't it?
You were so happy,
the moment you wake up, it was just a dream.
You are so right.
Sometimes I really want to keep on dreaming,
convincing myself its real.
I would never want to wake up.
I don't want it to end.
But then life is real, unlike dreams.
Get used to it sucker.

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds.

Falling in love with Fall Out Boys, dammit.

1. My Chemical Romance
2. The Killers
3. Fall Out Boys
4. Avenged Sevenfold
5. Flyleaf

Why I always kena during big group man?
Steph got her drums back.
Jaslen had diarrhoea.
I seriously need to find time to go to arcade.
FOR THE THE SECOND/THIRD TIME, ANYONE WANNA GO WITH ME?

I have to stop being mean to Jessie lah

Jeremy, maybe next week i return your lost.
Finish until Episode 14 already.
Eh, u faster buy Rock Band can?
I wanna play leh.

WALAO ROCK BAND NO MCR SONG

But got Flyleaf's I'm So Sick.
Very nice song.
Then got Iron Maiden also.
YES, I listen to Iron Maiden.
But,
the best song has got to be
The Killers' When You Were Young.
Omg, The Killers' songs like damn nice.
ESPECIALLY MR BRIGHTSIDE.

Then guitar hero 2 have
Avenged Sevenfold's Beast & The Harlot.
& YES I LISTEN TO THEM TOO.
Also have My Chemical Romance's Dead!,
Famous Last Words,
Teenagers &
This Is How I Disappear.
WHERE'S I DON'T LOVE YOU,
FUCK LAH,
ONE DAY I'M GOING TO PLAZA SINGAURA'S ARCADE,
PLAY DRUM MANIA.
Beside it got Guitar Freaks I think,
The other day Aida & Syafiqah played.



YAYAYA CORRECT,
SEESEESEE

"One of the major selling points of GuitarFreaks is its ability to be linked to another of Konami's Bemani games, DrumMania. This allows up to three players to join together to play simultaneously in Session Mode. During a session, the music will play simultaneously from both games, and the players' guitar and drum sounds are relayed between the two games."
(Adapted from Wikipedia)

Cool sia,
no wonder The Killers' Read My Mind vid,
they use both games.
ANYONE WANNA GO WITH ME?
Like very paiseh if go alone.
I noob in drums mah.
But last time, Imen's dad tried, than they say must have some gamecard thingy.

JIEXIN, I TOLD YOU I'LL PUT IT ON MY BLOG

George photoshopped picture,
Damn nice,
except that its going down.

I EDITTED WITH PAINT.
SEE, GEORGE FINALLY BECOME BANGLA.
HE'S BLACK

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYATHIRAH!

Ok I am so not use to being at home on a Friday before 6.
Whatever.
I AM REALLY PISSED WITH ATIKA.
Ok, so I'm taking 07, Jing Yi 7.

WALAO, I KNOW WHERE TO PRACTICE,
GO ARCADE AT PLAZA SING HAVE DRUM MANIA.

I walked home today, damn tired.
YES I WALKED HOME
Which is like around 1-2 km.
Since no CO not much happened.
Maybe something will later

Okay, so fighting with Jing Yi over the number Seven class jersey,
REALLY drains me.
HE ALREADY HAVE A LOT NUMBER SEVEN JERSEYS LAH.
He wouldn't gave in.
Ok, he insisted on having two SEVENS.
At first I didn't want to,
I told him to take 07, he don't want,
so i take 7.
Then he told me to take 07, I don't want,
& he would take 7.
then we argued, shouted,
everything was hysterical.
Then at last, we both agreed that we both have the same number,
SEVEN.
But its kind of weird having two people with the same number on their backs.
And come to think of it 07 is nicer than 7.
So sorry to disappoint you Jeremy, but,
MAYBE I'm gonna stop fighting for my rights with Jing Yi.
I still deserve that number though, right Celeste?


Today was the O level results thingy.
And I just came back from celebrating my sis results after practice.
Practice was fuckingly okay,
Jessie didn't come, as her usual self,
since she is always asking people to do something,
but she herself doesn't do it,
whateverlah.
Ek Jun's hair was a little bit diff,
during break, we called him,
& me, steph and maisarah sang, no shouted.

HEY HEY YOU YOU
I DON'T LIKE YOUR GIRLFRIEND

& he hung up
cause he didn't know my number.
Whatever.

INDONESIANS ACCENTS ARE TOTALLY SEXY

Finally saw -ehhem- after 4 days of sianness.
I THOUGHT BAND PUTTING THEIR STUFF IN CD SHELTER?
I WANT PRACTICE LEH

Oh ya Eric cut his hair. lolololololol
he told me that kaixin person from his class act in the kinship yesterday,
she was pregnant & i think she had a miscarriage. lololololololol

& OMG JING YI & JEREMY LOOK DAMN CUTE WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG.

Like wth,
Jessie just smsed me,
Practice change to thursday.
until March
& thats bad,
why?
Because, I'm used to going home late on Friday.
Because, I'm used to waiting for -ehhem- just so I can take the same bus with him.
Because, it means another chance lost of seeing -ehhem-.
Because, it means I won't really get to see -ehhem- before he graduates this year.

SIGHsighsigh

Told myself already that 2008 not gonna be really good.
I'm going to Steph's party in March, which she already started planning.

WE LOVE EACH OTHER RIGHT?

Lava calls us racists

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I suddenly missed my late grandpa.
I was thinking of him.
I'll tell you the story on how I was too late to see him for the last time.

Since February last year,
my grandpa has been in & out of the hospital.
I wasn't very sure what his illness was,
but it was really painful to see my beloved grandpa,
weak and asleep always on the hospital bed.
He needed help to chew his food,
& there was one point, he only took liquid food.
To watch him struggle to lift himself to sit wasn't a very comforting thought.
So, I did as I was told, sit in the waiting room with all my other cousins.
It was really unbearable to think what would happen the next day.
I didn't want to lose him.
One day, the doctor told us that we have to be prepared for the worst.
But I didn't.
I held on to that one tiny bit of hope in my heart.
I kept thinking that everything will be okay.
But my grandpa's condition worsen by the day,
I was coping with the new school environment,
so my mind became very occupied.
I didn't know why I didn't bother to visit my grandpa after school.
How stupid.
I really loved him.
But I really couldn't bear watching him slipped away.
My mum, being the caring person that she was,
visited him every single day.
February past and the March holidays came.
On the 13th of March, I went to the library,
only to rush back home again after my father called and said that my grandpa's condition is worst than ever.
I kept twisting my fingers around my jacket,
convincing myself that nothing was wrong.
When I finally reached his ward,
& upon seeing the room filled with family members crying,
I knew,
I just knew.
I broke down.
Lost control.
Realized that I was late,
too late.
I didn't get to see him one last time.
At the funeral,
before they covered my grandpa's face one last time,
I cried, while kissing his cheek one last time.
I have to accept that my late grandpa, has finally moved on.

Atuk, I miss you.

WAAAAA!
40 PEOPLE JOIN CO.
COOL.

I am starting to let go of my frustrations by biting my lower lip.
Hope it doesn't bleed. Went Bedok Reservoir just now.
Will be posting pictures.


My bro take one. Thats why blurry.


He damn cute right?


Flying fox-ing at Bedok Reservoir


CAMWHORING

Under my umbrella, ella, ella.

hug, HUG, HUG



Tall candy canes, nah, I think they're for birds.



Syu. :D




CAMWHORING!!

is that shadow cute or what? Teehee.


WAAAAAA

Let's kiss the pavement.



We are all thirsty & tired.




BIG FOOT DOES EXIST.
You know what I think?
I think the Big Foot legend is derived from the Andean mountaineers Miss Gloria Tan talked about.
Missing Mrs Koh.

Last Friday....





You may kiss the...uh...broom?

Not last Friday.

George says he wanna photoshop this picture.
I wanna see the outcome.

Tell me, who have not started vandalizing their table?